A Chapter of 10%
December 4, 2009
7 years ago I sat in a classroom as our teacher informed us of a cultural paradigm, one which stated that after high school you’d only really see about 10% of all students from your graduating year level, ever again. Looking around at the time, I didn’t believe it would happen. Being one of 80 students in my year level, we were all quite close knit. A tightly woven bunch of young adults with similar characteristics; which I was to find out years later was something that most young adults in our general geographical location seemed to have in common.
Today I sat in a church pew several rows away from the first student of our Year Level to get married, and this previously mentioned paradigm managed to wriggle its way to the front of my head. For the fleeting moments that proceeded, while the soundtrack to “PS I love you” played in the background, it seemed time slowed down and reality hit. 2 years on from graduating and it was the first time I was with such a large number of school friends. For me this chapter of my life had involved less than that 10%.
However those many years ago I believed we would cause a revolution, a paradigm shift and though that may have occurred for some of those old students, it hadn’t for me, at least not in the way I would have predicted. Nowadays the lines have blurred, with sites such as Facebook and Twitter we’ve all kept connected, but those connections aren’t as deeply grounded as what previous generations may have become familiar with.
I have a couple of couches sitting in my room, facing a blank yellow wall. Perhaps the only way I will be able to use it with my current social groups is if there’s a webcam on the wall. What has happened for about half of the people I associate with several times a week to be people who don’t even live in my area.
My internet broke on Monday, and for the next two days I was disconnected. And in the end it wasn’t the lack of email access, Facebook, YouTube, or the plethora of community forums I have some involvement in; I had been disconnected from everyone bar those I live with.
There was a reading at Mel & Ben’s wedding that spoke of the greatest thing to experience was truly love. Now I love my job, I love what I do, but it’s not about that. Those moments that broke the perpetual cycle of a seemingly monotonous life revealed the underlying fact that it’s all about love, and all I really want to do is be about to share it, to express it.
So maybe you need to take a step back and think about the 10%s of your life, whether you’re too caught up in this thing we call life. As part of my job I obviously write reviews as a lot of you know me from that, but again time and time again I find myself having writer’s block for no apparent reason. Life isn’t easy, and it’s made even harder by being alone. Sure with the internet we’re never really alone, but imagine if you were disconnected. Pick up the phone, call someone, go fly a kite, play a board game, or watch something with a bunch of friends; all things that I’ve done recently and had more fun doing then sitting around trying to review some game. Work is work whatever way you look at it, and it’ll always be there waiting for you. But it can do just that, wait.
I guess my purpose for writing this is firstly because I’m writing this Modern Warfare 2 review and it’s going slow, so needed to wet my literacy appetite with a dish I know will leave me feeling fulfilled at least in part, but also because hopefully it’s provided you with my perspective of one thing we tend to miss while staring at the facade of life.
Congrats to Mel & Ben on their wedding.